You would think that as a writer I would have started a blog years ago. I am embarking on a new and improved life, finally at a place where I need to venture up the ladder rather than crashing through the splintery rungs, falling on my ass, no parachute available.
I start so many projects: sewing, photography, writing a novel, jewelry, cake decorating, candles…anything to ease the drudgery of a full time day job. Then the project is past the honeymoon phase of beginning and planning, the elusive beginner’s mind. Block out the old and buy a new pattern or book, cool fabric, stickers, multi-pack pens and quickly I lose interest. I can’t get to the results fast enough, the anxiety of following through is just too much. Anything can be easy to start, asking for help or finishing, not so much.
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But I have not started a blog. And I find it funny that this Microsoft Word has a red line under the word blog. Isn’t that word securely ensconced into our vernacular? So here goes with the proper introductions. TA DA:
I am one of those older Gen-Xers, I was there for 80s new wave and then 90s grunge. When the Clash first came to America, and the death of Kurt Cobain. William S Burroughs, super models, desert shield, Reagan, tickle-me-elmo, I’m sure you know me. I was a vegetarian for 20 years, got divorced and started eating meat again. I’m dry but sometimes actually funny.
I don’t know where I’m going and I really have no idea how I got here. I worked at the same company for too long until they finally laid me off. I got too comfortable. I thought that was what you did. And I’m not that old. I earned my Master’s in Counseling thinking that would be a good place to go, but most counseling right out of school pays $15/hr. My internship was a bust and didn’t prepare me to go into an agency. So back to the lay off. I left March 2016 with no prospects except unemployment. After a month of job searching with no prospects, I was able to get worker retraining through unemployment that paid my benefits for a year. I decided to go back to school (once again) and I earned a certificate in Computer Networking, IT.
THAT WAS A BLAST. I love IT, networking, enterprise, Linux, security, Windows Server 2012…I had the best time of my life. One year certificate at a local technical college. My teachers were amazing, the school cheered you through, I got to delay finding a job for another year.
So here I am once again. No unemployment and no school and no job. I guess I am in the limbo room from hell. Not sure where to turn. Keeping anxiety at bay. Walking my dog, cooking from scratch. Now I am sure I can keep up with this blog.
Stay tuned. I’d like to make sense of why I am here.
like i want to do so much
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